lock up!

as wat i said, without hym, i will never be able to control myself... yeah... i was in the lock up for the whole nyte n u wanna noe how it feels? it was damn bored! sitting alone in an enclosed place n no one to talk to, it was just a boring thing..! but luckily, maybe they still pity me wen they get to noe my parents reaction tat they don wanna bail me out n the way they scold me wif vulgur words in front of them, they gave me advices n did some jokes wen i was in the lock up...! lyk wth sia... idk whose scissor was left then the singh officer asked me wat is the used o the scissor then i replied to cut things la.. then he said, no.. it is to cut your hair as wen u sit inside alone n your hair covers your face, it freaks me out.. hehes.. some of them were laughing.. haiz... then sat in there wif my sleepy eyes lyk stupid person... waited for my parents to bail me out.. then finally, aft a few times the officers talked n called my parents, in the end my dad decided to bail me out... in the beginning, i thought my dad is going to beat me up lyk wat he usually did but donnoe y, he didnt.. y? afraid i beat u up izit?! haha! idiot! till now, they didnt talked to me... haiz... so wat?! didnt bother bout me? then i wont even wanna think bout u! get tat?! hais.. on the 28 april, i will have to go there n give statement again... n if im wrg, i will be thrown in for 20 years! imagine! 20 years?! haiz.. but aft think bout it back, i think its better... at least i can forget bout hym n run away from having probs wif my parents... haiz...

appearance difference..

isnt it obvious now tat im changing slowly? yes , aqirah.... thz for noticing it... not many did realise it so i purposely collage this pic... as wat i said, i will be changing.... im sry to hurt those tat think im not thinking of the rest of u... i do think about u guys ok... especially to all my bbygals.... eyfa, ana, aqirah, ila , eeqah n tirisyia.... i love you all but things doesnt go the way i wan it to be... if u all think tat u cant take my changes for now, i think u guys shud be prepare for more.. n be more patient wif me... the only hing tat wont change will be my love to u bbygals n my craziness... tats all...

to guess:

please tell me who u are if u do really know me... don say tat tat wil be for now... u start it so don end it... tell me who u really are ok.... n thx for caring n "LOVE" me ok...

Sorry to those tat will be effected by my changes...

Now, im no longer crying for hym.. im just gonna move on wif my life.. wif my own world of having fun till he end eventhough it will just make my sins more in my life.. so wat?! im no longer mother fcuking care bout myself now.. aft giving n loving someone lyk hell n get dumped in just a glance, wat do u expect? haha! now i noe tat wat they were telling me while i was wif u was true.. i loveme not becoz of love but because of my body... so now, since u just love me for my body ryte, i will make u hate my body k... haiz... no use me talikng without actions ryte... hmm.. just wait for the tym to come aites... n i swear, i wont regret tat boi! NEVER! hahahaha! watever la... its just a waste of tym for me talking bout this... hmm... so, yeah... im moving on... n hope u would b able to follow hys steps of havin TTMs k.. i dont mind.. n it seems tat u r no different than black.. both are just the same in the behaviour towards gurls n words... haha! hence, goodbye to you.. n hi to my new life..!

TO MY SYGS, SRY IF I WILL BE CHANGING MYSELF AFTER THIS... FIRSTLY, I WILL CHANGE BY MY APPEARANCE N THEN MY BEHAVIOUR....SO, SORRY IF THIS WILL RESULT IN HURTING U ALL... WATEVER HAPPENS, JUST REMEMBER TAT I WILL BE THE SAME TOWARDS YOU, MY BBYGALS... BUT JUST TO SOME PEOPLE, I WILL BE HARD TO THEM.. N TO THOSE TAT WILL WANT TO MAKE FRENS WIF ME, ESPECIALLY GUYS, I WILL BUSTERD U GUYS K... THIS IS WAT I LEARN FOR 2 MONTHS... SO, PREPARE FOR THE NEW AHGERL KAYSIOW EHSAI FOREVER OKAY!

My bbyGALS... I miss you all!

Name : Tirisyiaaa Bhonchyet Kaysiow
my beloved hunny and will always be loved...miss her lots... has helped me alot too.. make her angry, i will give hell to you k!
Name : IlahBeylo Kaysiow
My fierce tk menjadi gurl as she is always sweet n was never evil to anione unless u make her lyk your enemy then she will burst up... yet still, she will always smile... break her heart, i will definitely break your face!
Name: EyfaKechykk
Didnt noe if she is in the kaysiow gurls or not.... but im taking her as part of us... she is my lovely biatch... always smiles lyk her younger sys... 19 yet lyk our age.. lyk to joke around.. easy to be with at any moment... do any shit to her, i will make your face turn lyk a stupid shit!

Name: Eeqah Geeky Kaysiow

A nice n simple gurl tat just cant stop saying the word " LOL " ... I just donnoe y... hehes.. yet, still lyk the rest, calm at most of the times n becyok most of the tyms.. hehes.. FAKE... actually a nice n friendly person.... mess wif her, i will mess up your fcuking life kaey...!

im changing

from day to day, i noe tat im getting worse and had never imagined tat i will be changing myself lyk dis soo fast.. hasiz.. how i mizz to be lyk the past... thx to you for giving me these stupid chance... i have told u tat i couldn't guide myself without u... u want me to depend on someone else? wat can they do..? haiz.. i guess... i will be much worst more than these as days past by... i dont noe shud i thank u or shud i say u r stupid to let me go n let me be lyk dis.. haiz.... just fyi, i wont bother to ask u animore boud wen we will be able to be able to get back as i don wan later on, ppl might thought tat im the kind of gurl tat will beg for the guy back eventhough the guy dont wan me back... i dont want tat impression to be putted on me.. hence, i think, i will just wait silently n do my normal routine... nvm.. u just go ahead in watever u wanna do.. i do care.. now maybe not only u but another person might not realise it... both of u do watever u wan wif your so called beloved frens n bros... but remember, if one day both of u dont noe who to turn up to, to ask for help... just come back to us n i will help u aites...

MY BABYGALS

whoever tat make either one of them hurt, u will get it from the rest of us... these are the BBK tat alwayz will be together as the rest is always bz wif their own stuff... eventhough the BBK has shrenk to only 5 gurls, it is still fun k.. to the rest except for eeqah, korang bleyh jln sua... to mieyra.. laen kali, ngn sys sendiri jgn nk crk psl k.. t susah nanti lao hal jd besar.. hais...

speechless

today morning, i woke up late.. shud met my sys at 9.30 but due to some reason of me sleeping late, i woke up at 10... so was in a rush in the morning and met my sys at 10.30.. the slacked wif her at block 689' senior corner n she had to go off at 11... thought of tagging her along to eunos to meet her frens n make more new frens.. but too bad, had promised eyfa to follow her to clementi for something... so waited for wan till 12+.. n i was alone all along while waited for hym... met hym then went to buy cig at boon lay... i was hurt but yet happy as i could at least see n talk to hym even though we r no longer together... talked while walking n we were talking lyk normal frens.. i was glad enuf tat i was able to hold back my tears wif my smile... im not sure if he notice or not tat i was a little crazy as i was trying my best to hold my tears from bursting in front of hym... glad to hear tat he is going to find job... but isn't it goin to make u tired dear..? haiz... nvm.. im not going to say anitink as i don wanna make an impression to others tat im preventing u from doing this n dat...aft bought the cig, we walk to our separate ways... he went to mit atop n i went to meet eyfa.. met eyfa at her house then went out wif her 1+ to 2... bus-ed to clementi n walked again towards her so called fren's blok.. blablabla... proceed back to jp at 3.30 n text bear.. met bear a pondok lib at 4+ then slacked wif hym all the way till 6.30... went back home for a while n out again at 6.45 to meet them again.. slacked n eyfa had to go off then left me wif bear.. talked bout many things... all about life, relationship n stuff.. did talked seriously yet still joke ard.. both me n bear had the same feeling for the relationship part.. hahas.. jiwer lhar seyh.. haiz... so passed hym one song n let hym hear it... he was lyk.."sial lah... kimek..." almost every words has its own meaning tat has something to do wif us.. hais.. went back home at 8.00 n now, im here blogging n listening to jiwang songs... mama is getting more irritated by this.. haha..! serve u ryte mom! haiz... now, im speechless... just hoping tat he will realise the mistake he is doing now.. n only me wif one of my fren knew the mistake tat he is doing but he didnt realise it... haiz...