due to my stupidity..

nvr expected tat 26 march 2010 will b our separation date.. i noe tat i had done alot of mistakes... n i mean ALOT!! but y u just cant tell me n tegor me wen i did the mistakes.... jus for u to noe, im the kind of person yg senang kene influence... i just cant control myself n then wil intend to do stupid things... u said tat u dont lyk me saying im stupid but tats the fact! as wat u can see.... due to my stupidity, all these thing happens..!

1) went out wif ex without thinking of your feelings..

2) had a love bite from faiz..

3) hug n kiss from khai..

4) stole things even u said no..

5) talks bout faiz in front of you..

6) hide cig away from u..

7) had thought of leaving u..

i noe tat is all due to my stupidity..! i alwayz think of myself.. i admit i wanna change to a better person..! but i cant.. i will just intend to go back to my past..! im sry... i admit all is mt stupidity! now, after u left me, i noe i cant leave without u.. i kept on thinking of u day n nyte! n tat is a real situation..! not trying to sweet talk or wat.. but its the fact...! watever i do, i kept on thinking of u.. even if faiz contact me, i just cant erase u off my mind.. had never been in this situation before.. in the past, if the guy ask me for a break, i will juz be happy n find a new guy.. but for u, i just cant! i just cant.... i love u dear... wen i saw u passing by my balcony just now, i just intend to turn back.. i just cant hold my tears back... its just hard for me.. 2 days... for 2 days i had been crying n blaming myself... now, i couldnt cry... my tears r dry.. but just for you to noe, my heart n bleed n hurt.... not because of you but because of myself... for being stupid... for being the reasons of our break up... sry dear... im really2 sory.... aft i had received to by god's approval tat u wil giv me a second chance, i was really2 appreciate tat... thx... as for you to noe, i will just wait for the day to come even though i wont be the same.. i might be going to the dark side wihout u by my side.. i maybe going to the bright side if im strong enuf but now, i don think im able to go to the bright side... as im now leading to the dark side... hope tat u wil return to me real soon as i cant think straight without u.. im now half to the dark side.. soon, i will be at the dark side forever... i nid u boi... i really2 miss n i really2 love u... im sry for the past... sry..